I sustained a 4th degree tear after the birth of my first baby. At 6 weeks post-partum I had developed a rectal abscess that ruptured and created a perianal fistula. This led to multiple hospital trips and months of excruciating pain. I felt extremely anxious that my body would never heal, and I would not be able to care for my baby the way I always imagined. I eventually recovered physically and have since had a second baby via c-section which helped as a healing birth experience for me. I hope that by volunteering, I am able to help and give hope to others who have experienced birth trauma.